This year has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I’ve been searching for a job in a new city.
My current job isn’t awful. The benefits are amazing and the crew I work with is an incredible group of people. However, I feel that I’ve outgrown my job duties and I’m no longer learning and improving.
It’s hard to leave the comfort and security of what I have, but I need to find something else to continue my personal growth.
This stage in my life is coming to a close and it’s time to find a new path.
So I’ve sent out the resumes and dressed up for the interviews. I even had one solid offer and another unofficial offer that was becoming serious. Both times, I walked back out the door after realizing it wasn’t the right fit. And that’s a painful thing to do.
It’s not easy to walk away from an opportunity even when it’s the wrong opportunity. But I’ve accepted wrong jobs in the past and paid for them dearly. I’m not going to make that mistake again. At least not willingly. Employers want their employees to stick around and I want to enjoy the job enough to do just that.
I’m ready to move forward. I’m finding that I want different things from life than I wanted five years ago. Or even two years ago. Somehow, everything has changed and nothing has changed.
I’m searching for opportunity, but I’m also morphing and becoming more solid in myself. Though some people might throw me away, I know I’m more. I am worthy and strong. And even if they can’t see it, I hold value. And I won’t give up.
Someday, this will all be nothing more than memory and I’ll be happy I took the risk.
I’ve heard it said that the less you stretch your comfort zone, the more it begins to shrink. That’s a scary prospect.
Risk makes us feel alive. Many times, I’ve been rewarded for my boldness with wonderful life experiences.
Maybe the third time really will be a charm.